Saturday, October 11, 2014


My tiny one, 

You were set to arrive tomorrow. At least that was our plan. The doctors said you would arrive around the 15th of October but we knew you would come on the 12th. You see, Mommy has a thing about dates. I was born on 6-7-89 and Daddy and I were married on 7-9-11; it made perfect sense that you would arrive on 10-12-14.

My life has changed so much because of you sweet little one. When Daddy and I found out about you in February our hearts were forever changed. When I had the honor of holding you in my tummy for 3 months, I loved you so very much. Love, not loved. I was so sick, and you were so worth it. Even if only for the 3 months, you changed my heart and the core of my being. 

Tiny one, when we found out you had gone to Heaven, and your tiny little heart was now held by Jesus, mommy's heart broke; and her heart breaks tonight as she thinks of what could have been. Who you could have been. 

But little angel baby of mine, I had to write tonight. Because YOU matter, and your story matters. God created you, knowing exactly what He was doing, and the story of who you are is precious to me and will forever be. You were not a mistake, not an accident, but carefully thought out by the creator of the Heavens. He numbered your days and knew that Heaven would be your home. 

Every life matters my sweet baby. From the moment your little life began, you were so precious to your Heavenly Father, your daddy, and me. I grieve for you tonight angel dear, but rest in knowing that you are in the most glorious place, beyond what I could ever fathom or imagine. You matter, are loved and I praise God for creating your darling self. 

Glory Baby
by Watermark

I can't imagine heaven's lullabies
And what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing
Heaven is your home
And it's all you'll ever know

We miss you everyday, miss you in every way
But we know there's a day when we will hold you, we will hold you
And you'll kiss our tears away, when we're home to stay
We can't wait for the day when we will see you, we will see you

But baby let sweet Jesus hold you, until mom and dad can hold you
You'll just have heaven before we do
You'll just have heaven before we do
Yeah, you'll just have heaven before we do
Before we do

In Him,